Story

My dad passed in 2020

My boyfriend passed of a accidental overdose 😢

I woke up to him beside me 🙁

I got out know house arrs

I give my mom most of the money o Recieved from my disability. I’ve just come from. Being homeless.. but I still can’t manage my basic necessities…

I don’t even have my own body wash 😕

I’m 33 female and I suffer from borderline personality disorder. And major trauma from. Past relationships that were abusive in all ways possible.

Till my boyfriend who passed away on January 30 2025.

He opened my eyes to how I should be treated and how I am loved. He showed me he truly cared and I could not believe him. I thought it was all staged.. I thought he was st messing with me..

But he wasn’t.. he cared. He loved me and I could grasp that or believe him.

I wish I could go back and treat him with the love that he deserved instead of how our tme together ended up turning out to be.

I feel I took him for granted. And I’m so ashamed and regretful and entirely disappointed in myself for being so oblivious to him. I miss him. And I’m struggling with all of rhat and then fincials and debt are startg to really take it all away for me.

Wanting to stick around d seems to look less and less everytime I take a breath it feels and seems..