I’m in a shit place mentally right now. This is literally the worst period of my life. I am jobless for 2 years already, I thought I was close to accomplishing my dream but I failed and messed up majorly. and my mental health got messed up too. In less then a year I went from a disciplined healthy both physically and mentally dude with a nice job to a some kind of a shell of a person, I can’t even enjoy the little things now, like just sitting in the nature bc I always feel like I should be doing something but at the same time there’s nothing left to do. I’m not gonna lie, these money will mostly go for booze and cigs, maybe some energy drinks and food (I’m stuck with my mom currently, I want to move out so bad but I don’t have any money to) just so I don’t want to Duolingo Owl myself so bad. Please help, living hurts. Job offers would be appreciated too, if it’s remote, although there isn’t much I can do.

(I guess until I find a job or another way to raise my finances, this will be a semi-monthly thing)