“Quit my job after 8 years, this was the last email that I was going to send, my last words. I never did because I thought they didnt really deserve this much real from me. I hope someone can find some kind of humor or entertainment from it. Thanks”

Hello this is MyName, from store 123. I know you don’t know me on a personal level, which is how it should be, but I just kind of wanted to explain why things have happened the way they did and what it’s all come to. I’m not going to revise what I’m saying and reword it to sound more professional although I should, because I want it to be as authentic and genuine as possible , hell I almost dont even wanna use the auto correct because of all the typos I’m doing. I want it to be me talking. I’ve been thinking and reflecting alot about my life and where it’s headed and where I am now . I do want to move forward and I don’t know if it could be done working in the position I was and have been in for so long. I have always, all my life needed to be pushed and challenged and I really wasnt feeling it all at that store where it had all started so long ago. I felt like I was moving backwards . I really don’t care about money I don’t care about having brand new things, I grew up a middle child and always had hand me downs from my older brother so it’s kind of what I’m used to and it’s just a part of who I am — ok so I’m going to copy this and send it to myself on my PC because I cannot stand typing on a phone —

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Ok i’m back on the computer, which is my comfort zone. Lol I spent alot of time on the computer growing up playing freakin’ world of warcraft. My brother decided to leave home and joined the Navy when he was like 17 because home life was pretty intense. And thats coming from me being 5 years younger than him, so I guess I didn’t see things the way he did. I’m sure my hard ass father was alot tougher on him than I. Which I got it pretty bad sometimes too, but you know being the oldest son i’m sure was not easy to deal with. So the only way I could hang out or talk to my brother was online, before cellphones, on the computer playing games. It was awesome.

Anyway, sorry I got side tracked, back to what I wanted to say in the first place.

I know you don’t know me and I’m not trying to get you to, but you can ask almost anyone and everyone i have ever worked with, or served that I am a genuinely nice and honest person. i always try to make everyones day a little better because I know how it feels when the daily grind and struggles become too much. I seperate my person and work life completely, I am honestly a different person when i’m at work because its business. I have a job to do and a role to play. I have been told countless, countless times that I go above and beyond and I know i do and hell its embarassing to admit but it feels good to hear that complilment. I dont wanna be this food service worker wage slave but ill play the part. and I do it well, i enjoy doing it. Because i am that damn good at it. I’m a competitive person and i love to win. Haha.

As far as me not being able to work with HorribleBoss, and to just go work things out and talk it out, we have tried that before this isnt the first time i’ve eaten crow and let her speak to me the way she does. I’m not doing it anymore, i cannot do it anymore. I know for a fact she has retaliated against me on a personal level and have proven it to myself, because I caught her in a huge lie just as I had suspected and told no one. BadStoreMngr was there in the office that day and could vouch for me, But I know she wont. Her and HB had this weird thing going on where they had each others backs even if they were in the wrong. Which is how it should be, Managers should keep the employees minds at ease knowing they are handling everything by the book and that everything is being done in a professional, correct manner but sometimes it gets a little too black and white. When really everything is grey. I believe that managers should still keep each other in check if they are doing things the wrong way. Not continue letting each other do things a little shady. BSM knew HB had some personal anger towards me. And I really do think its because I told her, in the deli freezer that day, and i will never forget because it felt so good to finally say to her, so good that my voice started to tremble – “Yes i want to be lead, but i don’t want to be your lead.” And I said it very politely but she was FURIOUS. From that day on, it just flipped.

Also this whole probationary thing, was her way of beating me and you know what she did. Sure, HB won. She must’ve heard I was apparently being considered to go be lead in OtherCity and she just could not have that. I hope shes happy. When I was given the probation form that I signed carelessly, I was handed it by RandomNewMngr, the new evening manager who I have never met, and I have never even spoken to. I didn’t read the paper, because she literally said here HB told me to have you sign this. I shrugged it off because who is this lady? I had already talked to Paul a week or two before about the same dates that I glanced at on the paper, and figured it was the same thing. I was ambushed, like hello, sign this, okay thanks. She should have, and this is what I Believe, if a manager is going to have you sign a form that is an employee being put on disciplinary probation with their job and their livelihood at stake. The employee should read the damn paper. RSM saw me glance at that paper for 5 seconds knowing damn well that I did not read that whole thing. Like come on man, first of all… Shouldnt of my almighty, wonderful manager HB been the one to hand me that paper and have me sign it? Or even the store manager, BSM?

And Yes sir, I’m aware, and I take full accountability that my attendance and tardiness is wrong and also unnaceptable and im sorry, but thats what it has done to me. I didnt care, i stopped caring. Because i knew deep down i needed a change but i was afraid to leave my comfort zone and move the hell on with my life. I’m not going to stay at that store, regular joe employee, till i’m “freakin” 50 years old and listen to that “crap”. I can do the job one thouuuuuuusand times better than her. and listening to her insult me and make “freakin” faces at me and humiliate me. I am not doing it sir, i am not. She is a good manager, don’t get me wrong.. at times, but she has some weird god complex thing going on and she treats us like we are her children and she must rule by fear, i dont know she has a very interesting way of doing things. Its kinda weird. to say the least. I could go on about why its built up and things shes done just to me personally, that I feel are completely unacceptable but I will not, I really just wanted this to be focused on me and me alone.

But really – the reason i wanted to email you today and explain is because i feel i owe at least this much to the company, for financially supporting me how it has to get me to where i am at now. However i truly, truly, truly believe that i have been working for peeaaaanuts, compared to the work i provide. again, that is part of the reason for the attendance issue. These new hire kids that literally sir, do next to nothing, all day, started at 13 an hour! Wow! I apologize for being upfront all of a sudden but i tend to let emotion come out through my text because i have done it for so long.

I cannot be proud of myself if i continue doing what i have been doing this past year or two in the position in my life i am at now. Its a humilation to myself and to my existence. It was my subconscious crying out for help because I was too afraid to come out and tell that pathetic woman how i really feel, and that she should not be treating me, and these other people the way she does.

Ive been there for almost 8 years and i am 32 years old making 14.50 an hour… that is a fact i cannot live with anymore. I excel and break fucking barriers with my personality, my work and my potential! Again, I will apologize because this became a little too “me” than I initially intended. But alas, here we are. Thank you so much for all that the company has done for me and allowed me to do! I had a ton of really great experiences and fun times! However I will say, without a doubt in my mind that the company got the better deal because of the LITERAL blood, sweat, tears, shit, piss and every single bit of me i would give and have given over the time ive been there. I dont just mean the front of house work the customers see, smiling faces and preparing orders. I’m talking dirty, greasy, gross, disgusting back of house work that no one else would do. I did that. Because No one else would, and if they did it was half ass and I would have to redo it anyway. I easily did the work of 3 employees most days. This is not a big “screw you” to StoreName or to you at all. I didnt want it to come to this, like this, but it did. I’m typing and talking in my head the way I would to a best friend or even my mother. Because its how i feel. So i hope you can understand that, and i do wish we were talking in person because i’m not mad at all. I’m actually relieved, and excited, and you know what i cant wait until you read this because it feels that good. To really let it all out and be able to because i have nothing to lose. I could and i think i am, crying tears of joy right now. It feels amazing! I love this feeling. Anyway, I do wish the company the best, and really maybe we could grab a drink sometime — actually Jk, I don’t drink anymore, 2 years sober my friend!! – but even just take a damn walk through river side park with a coffee and talk about just life sometime. Err, nevermind because I kind of hate the whole “lets take a walk and get coffee thing” but you get me right? Well I was going to again kind of revise this a bit and fix up what i’ve said because it might me too raw and too me but i’m not going to. If you really did read this, which now i don’t think you will read it all, because you probably think i’m crazy or some pissed off employee? lol, I hope maybe you got just a little inkling of who i am. I am a real person, a good dude. and yeah i fucked up a little, but i am a damned good worker, and i am, or was, among the very best you will ever have. and i don’t even need validation because i know it. I’ve heard it from anyone and everyone i have ever had the priveledge of working with or serving. Actually i take that back some of the people i’ve worked with are completely, completely useless and should be let go. i’m not kidding man you should see some of the shit these people do on the clock and get away with. Its ridiculous.

Well i need to get back to my day now, chores… yay.. Doing some much needed cleaning i’ve put off for a long time around the house. Lol, really thanks a lot for listening to me and no hard feelings or anything at all to StoreName, i love that place. i grew a lot and learned a lot about myself there.

Sincerely, the great, the amazing, the wonderful and absolutely BEAST MODE

MY NAME

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   Please, don’t bunch or group Hubby and I together on this, he doesn’t feel this way at all, and i know its no secret we are a very happy married couple, i know disgusting right, but we are as opposite as it could possibly get. This is me and just me talking. He is really the best (besides me lol) dude yall have and hes done alot for yall too. Probably more than I have, and thats really saying something. He actually has no idea that I decided to write to you, hes actually in OtherCity with his family. Shits really kind of hitting the literal fan for both of us right now, i think his sister in law is kind of trying to dump her 3 kids on us? I dont know, Hubbys brother is kind of mentally sick right now, or has been for a very very long time. So really i’m not sure whats going to happen. But thank you again sir. I really do hope you have a good weekend and i hope you read this monday morning and take it for what it is, Just me talking. Thanks.

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