Story

I will keep this short because I am not expecting to get any kind of help but I felt the need to try one last desperate effort instead of giving up. My name is Kevin but everyone calls me Kay (when I had people to talk to) I am 35 and live in Milwaukee. I have a son who I am trying my hardest to take care of and failing. I once had everything a person could ask for in life.. Good job, nice car, condo…. That suddenly all disappeared after my nightmare began. Lost multiple loved ones in a short period of time. Cancer,Suicide,car crash… I have been dealing with mental illness my entire life and have lived a pretty good life with the help from my drs and different programs. So I didn’t handle these deaths very well…. Finding my best friend hanging from a tree, then losing multiple family members due to terminal illness and then losing my other closest friend to a car accident was too much to handle. I lost my very good job because I was so depressed i couldn’t even get out of bed to go to work. Lost my condo… lost my mind honestly. Lost my condo and had to move back with my parents at 34 years old (moved out when I was 18). That made the depression worse and my anxiety went crazy and addiction got a hold of me. Went to rehab and got clean to come home to nowhere to live and nobody wanting anything to do with me anymore because now I’m labeled as an addict, junkie, etc because I was in a rehab facility bettering myself. So now I’m homeless and ran out of money for hotels, motels, food, my phone etc. I am grateful I have 1 friend who lets me stop by to shower and gives me some food now and then. He is the one who is letting me use his iPad right now but doesn’t know what I’m posting. He’s going through a divorce and has his own financial issues so he can’t lend me money and won’t let me stay with him because he has kids and doesn’t want them around somebody like me. I will visit him soon and check on this post to see if anyone is kind enough to help me out until I get back on my feet. I am in the process of getting a job at a local gas station for the time being but it will be a couple weeks until I see my first check after the hiring process and so on… I am not a person to ask for handouts and honestly I’m embarrassed to post this. I would want to pay back anything anyone would bless me with. I’m just stuck right now with no money to my name and the clothes on my back and sadly I wouldn’t be in this situation if I didn’t go get help and what I mean is my family is judgmental. I’m glad I did and I feel happy sober even though I’m living out of my car/in a park. I’m just looking for a couple bucks for gas/food etc until I start getting income again. This is only a small fraction of the issues I have going on right now but I said I would keep it short. I appreciate anyone who took the time to read this and anything would be greatly appreciated and would mean more than you know. I’m at my breaking point and I’m picking up my pride asking for help. Thank you and god bless