Story

Hello all. My name is Mia and I am a 22 year old psychology student here in Lincoln, NE. I recently fell on some bad luck within the last few months. Firstly, I came home to my fiance in bed with another girl and so I had to move thirty minutes away by myself with no help. This took me two weeks and I couldn’t walk for two days and the entire time his family helped him move and watched me in silence. Next, I was sexually harassed at work and when I reported it to my boss he fired me, saying that I ‘invited it”. I was wearing a black sweatshirt. It has been insanely hard trying to pick myself back up as they are a well known company and bad talk me every chance they get. I am in the process of getting a lawyer but again since I have no money I still haven’t found one yet. I was also publicly humiliated by my boss for my health issues. My partner left me and our two dogs by myself so it’s just the three of us. On top of all of this, I was wrongfully arrested and patted down by a ton of male cops and treated like a criminal even though I committed no crime and it was a mistake on their end. They still made me pay $100 in court fees too. I was sitting at home and they busted through my door, (four huge male cops all for a 22-year old girl with no criminal record?). I had no bra on so I asked if I could get changed, and he said yes but that all four of them would have to watch me get dressed. I also slipped on my way into the back of the officers car and bruised my pelvic bone and was not asked if I was okay. I have been trying to get through these past few months but I am starting to become so depressed that it’s becoming hard to take care of myself.  Two months ago I attempted suicide. My ex-partner cheated on me and gave me a severe case of HSV-2 where it forms on the inside of my uterus – making it feel like the worst period cramps you have ever experienced. I sat in my bed for an entire month sitting on a bag of ice. On top of this, I have severe PTSD from trauma growing up: I was at the Von Maur shooting in 2007, a Walgreen’s robbery in 2012 where I almost lost my life, my father is a severely abusive alcoholic and would rape my mom above my bedroom until I caught him having an affair and convinced her to get my sisters and I away from him. He would hold guns and knives to our heads and necks and even broke my baby sisters bed frame in half. My siblings are doing very well as they both have great jobs and supportive partners and are living a better life.  I have been abused in every single way you could possibly think of. And I’m 22 years old, completely on my own. My anxiety attacks have been on a daily basis because I am so scared for my pets, my life, my health. A month ago I had a combination of an upper respiratory infection which put enough stress on my body to trigger an HSV outbreak. I cannot stop stressing about money and it keeps making my physical health so much worse. Due to my trauma I suffer from PTSD, OCD, anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, and BPD. I have seen 22 therapists in my life and have only recently found one specialized enough to treat me with DBT therapy however my bill is up to 2K and I can’t keep going until I pay for it. My parents do not help me – my mom cannot as my father stole her retirement funds and she was just diagnosed with liver and kidney failure. (She has never drank a day in her life). My father refuses to help me as we do not really talk and has a new family. I really don’t know what to do as I have a car payment, rent is due in a few days, my dog is overdue for vaccinations, I am suffering a severe HSV outbreak and am out of my medication and cannot afford it, and I’m honestly so hungry. I also have celiac’s disease so all I’ve had to eat has been macaroni and cheese and I feel so extremely sick. I attempted applying for disability but it is not enough to survive off of. I have applied for several jobs but for whatever reason can’t get hired when before I got hired nearly everywhere I would apply because I have a nice resume – so again I’m scared that my old job is bad talking me. It’s been four months and I still haven’t gotten hired anywhere despite applying for 400+ jobs. If you read my story, please please please consider helping me. I am starting to get really hungry and it’s triggering my migraines, and I am out of dog food. I just started waitressing but it’s $2 an hour plus tips and I am not allowed to take home tips for another week.